What It's Like
It's like you look back 
and there's the first half of forever 
which was nothing to you since you were nothing 
yourself but there it is stretching way 
beyond the beginning 
of the beginning of anything 
because it is the first half of everything 
which is what the absence of you had been zipping through, 
and so imagine your exits: Stone Age, Age of Reason, 
Renaissance, etc., or, say, 8902 BC, or 1396, or 1464, 
or 1982, or maybe when the landscape finally 
looks familiar or attractive or instructive enough, 
someone—who but you, but there is no you—somebody 
says, Well, this looks pretty good, 
and so all these tiny bits of carbon and hydrogen, 
nitrogen, and calcium, phosphorus, sodium, and sulfur 
copper, zinc, iron, and bromide 
clump up in somebody's belly, clump and grow, 
clump and grow until you spring forth 
in a bathroom south of Akron or a cab in New Delhi, 
a bedroom in Ames or a pool hall in Brixton or an ER in Boston 
which is what it's like exactly, except, except 
pretty soon you're wondering why 
you couldn't remember to remember 
that route a little bit, goddamn it, 
your roots because now here you are 
and it's the middle of the night and you're in the kitchen 
scanning the classifieds or thumbing a catalog 
or slicing a pie and you look up 
and there's the stove clock saying 
2:10 and you're all 
wound up about nothing again.
-Mark Kraushaar
 
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