this hideous confection is an example of the topic i'd like to touch on today:
crazycakes
as in, yesterday i realized there are a scary number of people who walk around my campus talking to themselves
in public, outloud, conversing
with themselves
they are crazycakes

but see then i had a mini panic attack in class
induced by the act of writing a list of things i had to do this term
and by the realization that i might become so overwhelmed by the stress and looming due dates and performance anxiety that i could get to june and find myself walking up to my diploma without any memories of the only thing i really want to do this term:
lie on my back all over campus beside people i love.
and sitting in class sweating and drilling my fingers on the tabletop i realized:
i was talking to myself.
i was going crazycakes.

so here is my public announcement:
i will not lose my sense of humor
i will not light something on fire
(not even my script which i was threatening with a lighter recently)
i will sit still long enough to enjoy the things i accomplish
i will keep my people close
i will breathe
i will love
and so help me god i will not join the ranks of the outer-monologuers

oh. and i will take this song twice daily like the happy drug it is:
MGMT - Kids
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